Run away from boring city life to the place where calm and peace take place. A farm is a perfect place for you, but not that messy farm like this. Take care of it and make it look good.
There is probably no place on the Earth, where you could feel comfortable and happy, but a farm. You've lived a life, that was boring and routine, but this had to end someday. At last, you have your own farm, but it's not what you expected. In order to make it work you should create good conditions and put lots of effort in it! Can you achieve that?